I figured since Caitlyn challenged me to do this, and I haven't posted in awhile, I'll go ahead and write ten honest things. I'm assuming it's to be about me and my life, so that's what I'm doing:
1. I worry about what kind of mom I am going to be. I'm sure every new mom worries about it, but when I get upset I am very impatient and tend to cry a lot. I'm worried that I won't be able to cope with the frustrations of parenting, not that I will hurt my children, but that I won't be able to raise them like they need to be. I also worry that they won't take me seriously, because I will have an emotional breakdown in the middle of trying to reprimand them.
2. I like being pregnant. Maybe part of that stems from the fact that I technically have a child, and I don't actually have to worry too much about them quite yet, and so it's easy. Even at 38 + weeks, mostly I'm still really happy with just being pregnant for now. I like that I am not stressed out about eating or exercising, and that I still feel really good about my body. I like that I have not gotten stretch marks yet, and trust me, I check every day for them. I like feeling him squirming around because it means he is doing well and he is alive.
3. My mood is easily affected by the weather. I don't like snow anymore, partly because it is still snowing in Rexburg on some days, but mostly because people have to drive in it. I am terrified of driving in the snow or any kind of bad weather. Thunderstorms, because of more recent past experiences, make me nervous. Again, especially while driving. I start shaking if we're in the car and the weather starts to turn bad. All I can think of at those times is that something bad is going to happen. Wind also makes me mad. I don't know why, maybe because it messes up my hair or something, but everytime that it is noticeably windy, I get cranky.
4. I really love my in-laws. I always worried about that before I got married, that my husbands family wouldn't like me, or that I'd feel really awkward around them because of how quiet I can be. What I love is how I feel comfortable with all of them, and that I enjoy spending time with them. It's awesome.
5. I hate it when people talk about fad diets of any kind. I think all fad diets are stupid and so are people that try them (sorry). They don't work. I also think things like lipo and other weight loss surgeries are a cop out unless they are medically necessary, but usually they aren't. The only proven way to lose weight and keep it off is diet and exercise, sorry but that's proven.
6. The only career I really want is to be a stay at home mom. Sometimes I feel like I'm lazy because people ask me what I'm going to do with my degree, and I'm too scared to tell them that I want to use it solely to raise my kids. But that's what I really want. It would be cool to be a personal trainer or do something like that if I need to work, but in all truthfulness, I just want to have Jacob work so that I can take care of our children. It may be lazy to some people, but I don't think so.
7. I am an awkward person. I think one of the reasons Jacob and I work so well together is because he always has something to say and I hardly ever do. Sometimes I even have a hard time with people I've known all my life. Sometimes I just feel awkward.
8. I like reading books more than I like watching tv. Books seem to be much more captivating, and you really get to understand the characters so much better. It's just so much easier to have the tv on, because I can do other things while I'm watching it. I watch tv more, but I like books better.
9. I don't have any hobbies. I tried crocheting, and it got boring half way through. I don't think I'm crafty enough for a sewing project, plus we don't have a sewing machine. It makes me wonder what I really will be doing with the rest of my life. I don't want to resort to tv because it's there and get really lazy. I can't even keep myself occupied on the computer for more than 15 minutes, and that's when I'm trying. I do want a hobby though, because the one time I did successfully crochet I felt so accomplished. Too bad it got really boring for me. I think it's not so much that I want a hobby, but I want to be doing things that make me feel like my life is worth while and productive.
10. I'm not worried about the future. There are so many things out there that say that I should be. Having a baby while my husband is in school, looking at the state of the economy and jobs, not knowing where we'll be three years down the road... The list is forever long. But, ever since I've known I wanted to marry Jacob, I haven't worried about my future. It may just be Heavenly Father's way of telling me that things will turn out just fine, or it may just be that I am completely in denial. Either way, for now, I am really happy with the way things are and I know that everything will turn out however it turns out.
4 comments:
Yay Kristin! Now I feel special because you posted this. You'll be a great mom, don't worry.
Speaking of being a mom, do you know what's weird? Buying your child a kid's meal for the first time ever, because it means they're old enough to eat it instead of have a few bites from your food and be satisfied. Also, I'm a bad mom, because today when they asked me if I wanted fries or oranges with Chaela's meal, I said fries. Because that's what she wanted. Good thing I'm teaching them healthy habits, ha ha.
uh, having now done this for 15 months, which CLEARLY makes me an expert (LOL), i can tell you there is NOTHING lazy about being a SAHM! i also tell you this as someone who did NOT want to stay at home with my kids. i always assumed that after 6 months i'd go back to work, and then 6 months came and i didn't want to go to work. it's exhausting to chase a toddler around all day, but i love it, and what better use for your degree is there then to use it to teach the next generation? besides, being a mom doesn't mean you stop doing things for yourself. i still do all the same volunteer work i did before i had miles, and you'll have time to fun things too. you're studying exercise science, right? so if you wanted or needed to, you could teach an adult education exercise class 1 night a week. jacob would be home with your kid(s) and you'd be finding an additional "use" for your degree.
you're going to be a great mom! :-)
kris i totally know what you mean about hating bad weather. whenever nick and i are driving somewhere and the weathers no good i pretty much give a death grip to the door and one on the seat. i'm paranoid i guess. also i think you hate wind not only because it messes up your hair but it's also one of those nonstop rexburg things. i hate it too.
Hey Kristen I met you a couple times and Will and Cait's place. I just wanted to comment that don't for one second think that being a stay at home mom is being lazy. And don't let anyone tell you that it is, or make you feel like it is. It is down right hard. Absolutely amazing and rewarding and full of joy, but man alive is it a challenge. It takes a strong woman to want to devote herself fully to her husband and children, knowing that it leaves little if no time to even think about herself. But I truly believe it is the best job in the world, totally worth it. Just know your amazing for doing it.
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